Your Love or Your Friendship

I’m too scared if I’ll propose her and she doesn’t accept… then I will loose a good friend…
I don’t know yaar she is a very good friend… I don’t know if I should confess my feelings… dun wanna loose her at any cost
I’m happy being a friend of her for life… atleast she won’t think wrong about me…

And sometimes…

She is my best friend… and I can’t think about her in that way…
Are you crazy we are just best of friends… its just that we love to be with each other but that doesn’t mean anything else…

How many times such thoughts have crossed your mind…

Remember those teenage days… when love used to be in air… that tender age… that indecisive nature…

chupake chupake raat din aa.Nsuu bahanaa yaad hai ham ko

ab tak aashiqii kaa wo zamaanaa yaad hai humko
- Hasrat Mohani

Sometimes we do have strong feelings for our closest friend and are scared to disclose coz we fear that the sweet friendship will no more be sweet…

But is it fair to hold your feelings… and how long can you hold such feelings… your friend would sense it sooner or later… so why not put things across the table and solve… but easier said than done…

Is it so easy to decide when one is standing at a junction where he can see two roads… one is very clear… the extension of the road he is traveling on… the friendship one… and other is the diversion where he needs to go through a love check point… he doesn’t know where the road will lead to… what’s the end… but surely the more desired one ;-)

And most of the time its because we are so insecure we don’t dare to take that risk…
But are you doing justice to your friendship by hiding it…

Can you still have the same friendship with a your friend on knowing his/her feelings for you???

Sometimes the situation is reversed… you know that your friend has feelings for you but its not coming out in open… I feel that is even tougher to deal with…
Unfortunately relationships are not as simple as Maths… where all the equations have to balance… sometimes there are so many unbalanced equations but still they make sense and give u some result…

For a love relationship one needs to have that element of romance… that spark… which need not be there in friendship…

As a lot of people say… if you want her… be her best friend… I dun believe in that… if you have any feelings for the other person… keep giving her/him hints…indications of your feelings… else you will try to race for the slot of best friend… and you might reach there… but someone else will walk away with her…
That’s not bad… but that’s not what you wanted…
Its not just being his/her best friend but also igniting that spark of romance…

I’ve been in both the situations… I don’t know the way I tackled it was the best way or the correct way, or smooth enough… but I still feel its one of the most difficult decision to make…

I was going thru my diary and found one poem in which I had expressed my dilemma regarding love or friendship... and thats what made me blog this... As I was writing this some old memories flashed... and ofcourse came along was a smile.